Poor Girl Strange World: All's Well That Ends Well...I Think?

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

All's Well That Ends Well...I Think?

I'm pretty sure I've typed up at least half a dozen of these to throw up here when I actually got the chance to type it all out again...and then just never did.

Figured tonight would be a better night than any...

In less than 24 hours, I take a test that will determine my future. Now, let me just give you a rather quick rundown of my relationship with tests go...

It's a hate/hate relationship. Okay...it's a I'm-gonna-fuck-you-over/I'm-gonna-wish-I-could-rip-your-stupid-scantron-face-into-a-million-tiny-confetti-pieces-and-then-burn-you-to-the-fucking-ground-you-stupid-green-boxed-life-ruiner.

Okay, now that that has been cleared up, I have this test tomorrow. My nursing final. It all comes down to this. The last test, of the last semester, of the last chance I'm giving nursing school. Ahh, yes...I failed it once already. Blame it on a boy, blame it on being too young, blame it on whatever you want...it all comes down to the fact that I messed up and I had to figure out what the hell to do afterwards ((and after breaking part of my hand for punching a wall and buying two bottles of whiskey)). I failed. Not sure there's a whole lot of things I've failed at...and this wasn't something I was too proud of. So, I did what any rational person would do.

I fought my way back in, and gave it everything I had.

So, here I am...6 years later...from start to almost finish...it all comes down to whether or not I can pass this test. ((Aside from that OTHER big test I have to take in order to actually BE a nurse...)). I'm not entirely certain how I'm supposed to feel about finally finishing this very long, very difficult, very frustrating, very EVERYTHING journey I've gone on...with everyone else that has stuck with me along the way...

Or, maybe it's the fact that, in the near distant future, somebody out there is going to hand me a certificate to actually save people's lives...

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Lindsay Bileau
Lindsay's life is a force of positive change. She got hitched, moved to a different time zone, and is on a new career path, all within a few months of each other (because who needs space between major life events, right?). By day, she primps and pampers pooches. By night, she likes to relax by not cooking for her husband and dog (apologies in advance for excessive stories about Tiger). She's been known to be overly emotional to movies and television, her chosen form of humor is sarcasm, and she may or may not have a few lingering boy band crushes.

Jessie Forand
Jessie is a nerd. Journalist by day, she loves photography, music, and useless trivia. She worries equally about global affairs and nail polish colors (Okay, the nails usually come first). Constantly searching for new adventures and new shoes, Jessie is determined to have fun while pretending to become a grown-up.

Jade Forester
An English girl with her heart in Maine, Jade is (im)patiently waiting for green card eligibility as she (re)starts her adult life in the UK with an Individualized Studies degree (seriously) from UMaine Farmington. After two years of navigating uncertain post-graduate seas, living with family, friends and strangers, Jade finally landed a "real job" that actually uses what she learned in college - something she thought had faded into mythical status - and allows her to live on her own for the first time since college. She's a foodie, a worshipper of live music, and a determined optimist trying to enjoy finding her way back home.

Kay Foster
Kay is a real turd, deriving from a state where feces might actually outnumber people. She graduated with a Bachelor’s degree in Art, and thus will likely remain jobless and starve. She may need to sell her ovaries for some cash on the side, but months of sobbing and sweating profusely over joblessness have probably rendered her biological material useless and worth no monetary value. Kay can be seen in downtown coffee shops tossing indie CDs near hipsters in order to distract them and use their laptops, utilizing those tender moments of distraction to make heartfelt posts for your entertainment.

Hilary Hayward
On some days, Hilary feels like she could live forever. Of course, she won't. She is 28, beginning the slow, inexorable creep toward 30. At this tender point in her personal development, Hilary knows plenty about what she doesn't want (marriage, children, herpes) and what she never wants to see again (college debt, stage fright, Times Square), but when it comes to what she does want, all she knows is that she needs it to be interesting. When she isn't walking dogs in New York City, she spends her time blues dancing, playing guitar, drinking craft beer, and talking to strangers.

Erin Karcher
Once longing to live the life of an international jetsetting paramour or spy, Erin has settled semi-comfortably into an introvert’s life in Jersey City. While living hood-adjacent isn’t where she expected to end up (or intends to stay), her thick skin and sardonic wit serve her well in the daily battles with drug dealers, dysfunctional neighbors, and her very small dog. She currently longs for the country life, with a cottage and room for rabbits. For money, she works in content management for a digital media company, and freelances whenever someone thinks she’s clever enough to do so.

Leandra Merola
Once an optimist, Leandra has become a pessimist during the two long, long years since graduating college. With two very different degrees - one in physics and one in music - Leandra has managed to use neither of them and instead is pursuing a career in real estate in New York City. When she is not struggling with career decisions, Leandra spends as many hours as possible dancing, trying to relax with her incredibly patient boyfriend, and cooking up a storm with her roommate. She may be only 24, but more often than not she feels closer to 80.

Rose Alexandra
Rose is a singer, writer, dancer, artist, reader, actress, and teacher - which is a really long, fancy way of saying she is a waitress/bartender in the great city of New Orleans. Vermont bred and raised, she sometimes experiences Small Town Girl Syndrome - occasionally it gets so bad that she feels she must break into Journey. But aside from desperately missing fall foliage, real maple syrup, and cows, she leads an exciting life behind the bar at a tourist hotspot in the center of the French Quarter. Due to this lifestyle and the people she meets, she is supremely happy to belong to her own little corner of the internet where she can come and whine- er... blog.

Anne Schneider
Anne is a tea addict with not one, but two "useless degrees" in Theater. She is a recent escapee of the office world and spends her time sewing costume commissions and freelancing as a theatrical lighting designer. While she's sewing, she can also be found playing D&D and other tabletops, LARPing, or being uppity to her Laurel in the SCA East Kingdom. When she's not sewing, she's typically reading fiction or dancing.

Megan Smith
Megan lives by one rule: simple. Not sure if that is actually a rule, but more or less a motto! Her life, at this moment, is far from that. Between her job in an ER, her almost-ready-to-graduate nursing degree, and somehow managing to plan a wedding without failing out of school, she dances (and let's be honest, trips and falls a LOT like the klutz she is) around the balancing act of her life... without killing anyone in the process. Oh, and her dog is pretty amazing.

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All's Well That Ends Well...I Think?

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